Mesmerized by misery

Breezing winter in early 2011 was started by some heavy metal stuffs (honestly at first these stuffs really fucked me up). many things came in my mind, are these about Anti Christ, Satanism, Paganism or anything else? well Im not such a believer  as described above. so I carry it on. seems gonna be a long trip to explore all of these stuffs till I found some short cuts  southernlord & hydrahead. Im not such a metal guy I just listen and appreciate it.